Today, I’d like to talk about my thought patterns. My thoughts are never-ending— and, they pick up where I left off after I’ve woken up from sleep almost right away. Sometimes, they even carry over INTO my sleep!
I don’t ever deep sleep enough so I don’t have to go through the process of “waking up,” something that I don’t understand at all. Why do people take what seems like hours to come to their senses? I have no clue whatsoever! I am usually able to pick up in my thoughts exactly where I left off.
In the middle of a game when I fall asleep? I wake up and I am ready to play and I remember what I was about to do. Am I job-hunting when I take a nap? I wake up and I am ready to pick up exactly where I left off. This is true even when I get a deep, restful sleep: I am still ready to get out of bed and ready to go.
Now, how does these thoughts manifest themselves? The best way to understand it is to think of a giant storm cloud that is raining. Sometimes, you get a light rain, and other times, a heavy downpour. The rain is my thoughts and the cloud is the “container” for my thoughts.
Sometimes, there’s not a lot of stuff going on. As a result the storm is lighter. Even if it’s only about a few topics in passing, it is still “raining.” Other times, if I am focusing and perseverating on something, the rain comes down hard and it is raining on only one area (or topic). It really is an immersive thought process.
As I mentioned above, I can focus on whatever work is at hand. I call it “hyper-focusing.” When that happens, everything other than what I am doing “vanishes.” That is to say, I am what some call “deaf to the world.” It is hard for “outsiders” to break through that cloud sometimes.
That being said, a simple way to break through that cloud is to say my name a few times and let me come to you rather than “forcing your way in” to the cloud.
A final note is how I get my thoughts out. I write a ton. I have 3 blogs — 4 counting this one — and two writing internships. This is how I can get it all out. I can be very expressive that way. Speaking doesn’t always work — and can lead to frustrations and/or meltdowns when I am not able to communicate what I need, want, feel, or think effectively or accurately — or if the other person doesn’t understand after explaining it a few times and, additionally, this phenomenon seems to be prevalent among the Aspies I know.
I hope this has helped in some way, shape, or form to understand what may be going through the thoughts of that person in your life that has Asperger’s.