MIDNIGHT IN CHICAGO
welcomes Greg Trutner to the initiative.
He will be authoring the articles in the series
“From The Outside, Looking In.”
Before I start posting on Midnight in Chicago, I want to tell you about myself. My name is Greg. I am someone who has Aspergers (I call myself an Aspie). I also have perseverative interests (some call them “obsessions”) in politics and history (in fact, I have an undergraduate degree in BOTH of them).
Believe it or not, I am not here to talk about politics or history, or about any other perseverative interests. I’m here to talk about my life as an Aspie.
I should tell you that I think I am on the milder side of AS, and that what I have to say about myself might not fit your son/daughter, friend, employee, or co-worker (or maybe even boss). But I believe that this is a good point of reference should any of the above happen to be like me.
I am 26, currently unemployed (though I am actively looking for work), and living at home with my family. I dream one day of being an author or a professor. My social skills aren’t at the “normal” level; compared to others without AS, they are a little subpar. I also flap my hands and like audio stimulation (in fact, I am listening to music as I type this). However, loud noise scares me, crowds are not fun, and I am always thinking! In fact, I sometimes find myself “yelling mentally” at my brain to tell it to be quiet to I can go to sleep!
So what I am going to be writing about? Many people tell me that I seem “normal,” as though I don’t have AS. But I can tell you: I do. I have a real diagnosis from a psychologist to prove it. But though I may seem “normal” on the outside, I feel completely “odd” on the inside.
My writings are going to consist of three major areas:
1) Internal reactions: What do things like being interrupted at a meeting (or during a task)—or even meeting new people—actually do to me on the inside?
2) Celebrations: Being social isn’t always easy for an Aspie; so these are some of my successes on the social front and I want to celebrate them and tell you why I celebrate them; and
3) Internal “stuff”: The thought patterns of my mind, what I am feeling when I flap my arms, and so on.
It is my hope that my entries will lead to better understanding of someone you know, or of someone in your family, that has AS. And hopefully, that will lead to much happier, and much better, interactions with an Aspie (and an Aspie with you!) and make everyone better off because of it. At the very most, I hope it starts a dialog with people you know who are AS and provides a starting point to understand them better.